Detaching from the false self
My day of liberation: Detaching.
On Wednesday, July 23, 2014 – it was a day that will live in (my awakening) infamy! And maybe Diego’s too!
My spiritual practice, being non-dual, tells us that this world is an illusion and that we are not bodies rather we are spiritual beings who can never die. Yes the body dies but we are not it. We are much more.
On this day while taking my morning shower I had the urge, to before dressing, to stand in my backyard nude and proclaim to the Universe “I am not a body, I am free, for I am still as God created me.” I have a fairly private back yard.
In this world we are separated by our individual identities inhabiting bodies, and separated even more by names, our status, country, culture and religion. Even animals, flowers, plants, rocks and dirt are named and considered separate entities. We feel alone and separate and apart from Oneness. But feelings lie, they are not true.
However, we are more than a named thing. We are not a thing, we are beings that are joined by the mystery that gives us everything we need and most of all love. After showering I made sure my husband was busy on his computer and completely nude, opening the sliding glass door, I stepped out on the deck.
Diego stirred, “It’s alright Diego! Sit.” And with that I gingerly stepped off the deck and stood on the patio. I stretched my arms and face to the sky and turning around and around proclaiming –
*“I am not a body, I am free, for I am still as God created me.”
A July Thunderstorms had brought a cloudy morning and I could feel a slight drizzle on my upturned face. I said goodbye to Diego and retraced my steps.
Doing something I would never, ever do has taken me years. Now in a 70 plus year old body, I finally had the courage. You notice I didn’t do it in front of anyone else. Well just Diego and he wears his furry birthday suit all the time so he understands.
Why is this inner peace for me? Peace is detaching. As we age we are more and more concerned about our pending death. If we can detach from the body, little by little we are liberated from the grossness of form, that we are not, and enter to the spirit self that we are, and share with everyone.
It is a life’s work and it started many years ago as I wondered “Who am I, What am I and why am I here.” I now know who I am is spirit, inhabiting a body, and I came to learn the lessons of my particular classroom, my assignment and forgive everything, everyone and most of all my self so I can go Home.
We all share the same name of “Spirit” even if we have names that separate us. Maybe we should add spirit to our name, for example: Spirit Jane Doe; or Spirit John Doe. This is the shared Oneness regardless what our culture, religion or even the era we lived in while on earth. We are connected as Spirit to both past and future. Bodies come and go, but Spirit comes to learn lessons and then moves on via a thing called death. Death, a conveyor belt moving through time that cleanses and washes us of our egoic selves so we can know our truth and be free.
I don’t want to recommend this “bodily” liberation process unless you have a private place because we still live in a world with laws about exposing one’s self. But of course, liberation is a state of mind and you can do it in the privacy of your home. For some reason I wanted the sky to know and the proclamation to extend out into space and beyond to Heaven that is our Home. And Diego didn’t even bark, he understood.
*A Course In Miracles, Workbook Review VI, Lesson 219 – August 7
I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.”
Review of Lesson: 199) “I am not a body. I am free.”