Every time something happens to us, something traumatic or hurtful, it is stored away in a locker called resentments and grievances. Those memories keep coming up because that’s the ego’s job, i.e. to continue looping the grievances, hurts and upsets thus keeping love far, far away.
When am I not ruling my mind, the thoughts, feelings, upsets and forgiving which is most of the time, I am listening to the ego. When something nice occurs, the ego easily dismisses it because “you’re not worthy of love so don’t pay attention to that kindness for Heaven’s sake.”
The solution: Have a storage locker for love and appreciation. Be vigilant for them and replay and then give it away. When you receive, and give you have! Appreciate and love yourself, allow it and let it in. The ego will dismiss but don’t accept that thought.
When we judge, (that thought comes from the ego) it is an attack. It is an attack on your mind, your identity. See that and say “No!” I have no need to judge this! “Holy Spirit: What? Help me here.”
The ego doesn’t notice or give any credence to love. It dismisses kindnesses and hangs on to the grievances or the upsets.
But you are responsible for all thoughts. The ego is not your boss! The mind is healed by love, by embracing Love, noticing Love; letting Love In.
Love heals. Your mind is perfect, complete and whole. You are the Decision Maker and you have the power to give love to everything your five senses perceive: see, touch, hear, smell, tastes or thinks of.
For example the January 6th attack on the U.S. Capitol, if you stand above the battleground and send love to all those who were attacked and those who attacking, you are healing your mind. We don’t know what things are for. Everyone in that situation needs love, the whole country needs love. When you send love you are free and out of the judgment zone. I can’t say I appreciate the situation but I can appreciate the love I now feel. Whether you agree with the attackers or not, you are free because in are remembering love.
When we are in fear, angry, depressed, upset, remembering a grievance, we are listening to the ego, the fear and judgment producer. RECOGNIZE that you don’t want that anymore and ask the Holy Spirit to help you move into the Love column. That is your power!
Forgiveness is for bodies!
We remember resentments because we haven’t forgiven the past, the incidents or traumas. They have a way of sticking because fear and adrenaline is activated and we identify with the body. We fear for our lives or others. Maybe it was a “close call” that could have changed lives forever or maybe it did. Something BIG and important is so disturbing that it is imbedded in our psyche.
There are no accidents as it turns out. So whatever happened we now have the challenge of accepting, dealing with it and forgiving everyone and everything involved. We need to see how everything is for our best interests. We don’t always accept this but ask the Holy Spirit to help you. Where is the Love? Look for the love! It is there somewhere.
Allow Love and Gratitude to be at the top of your storage locker, the things to remember list. Love is never a little thing! Things may seem little but when we appreciate them, the love flows in.
If we develop an “attitude of gratitude” the big traumas won’t seem so big and awful. They will be superseded by the nice, the quiet; the sweet and touching moments.
In A Course In Miracles Manual #23. Does Jesus have a special place in healing? Pg. 58. p.4. s. 6. “And gratitude to God becomes the way in which He is remembered, for love cannot be far behind a grateful heart and thankful Mind.”
What has occurred recently that you forgot to add to your list? Today I received an appreciation note; it came out of the blue. The other day a gentleman looked at me and smiled. I don’t know why I just now remembered it but I do remember noticing his smile and smiling back and now I send appreciation and love back because I have them and I can give.
A Course in Miracles Workbook Lesson 236 – I rule my mind, which I alone must rule.
1. I have a kingdom I must rule. ²At times, it does not seem I am its king at all. ³It seems to triumph over me, and tell me what to think, and what to do and feel. ⁴And yet it has been given me to serve whatever purpose I perceive in it. ⁵My mind can only serve. ⁶Today I give its service to the Holy Spirit to employ as He sees fit. ⁷I thus direct my mind, which I alone can rule. ⁸And thus I set it free to do the Will of God.
2. Father, my mind is open to Your Thoughts, and closed today to every thought but Yours. ²I rule my mind, and offer it to You. ³Accept my gift, for it is Yours to me.
(https://acim.org/acim/en/s/649#1:1-2:3 | W-236.1:1–2:3)